“Sorry I annoyed you with my friendship.”
One of my readings last semester in my art history course at one point talked about the “arrogance” of believing one’s experience with tragedy so uniquely terrible that no others could possibly empathize. It was really provoking and I can’t believe I didn’t write about it.
It came to mind, because this week two of my classes have discussed the air bombing (leveling) of German cities during WWII, and the question of German victimhood. More than one Jewish student has gotten defensive and protested these “attempts to equate or rank” the sufferings of Jews and German civilians.
Rule of thumb for warm weather: Don’t eat anything unless it’s frozen and on a stick.
Better to spend my time looking at food than guys.
Bringing this back:
“I think white gay people feel cheated because they were born, in principle, in a society in which they were supposed to be safe[…] Their reaction seems to me in direct proportion to their sense of feeling cheated of the advantages which accrue to white people in a white society. There’s an element, it has always seemed to me, of bewilderment and complaint. Now that may sound very harsh, but the gay world as such is no more prepared to accept black people than anywhere else in society.” - James Baldwin
Decently entertaining webcomic for mindlessly killing time. Characters who are homosexual, bisexual, and asexual, with a majority female cast. Only one major non-white character, though (lulz the only others were her sister and niece, who showed up once in a subplot).
Burnout.
I have two weeks in-between Berlin and Buenos Aires and one week in-between Buenos Aires and Abu Dhabi. I could probably manage one more city before going home this summer, but (and I can’t believe I’m saying this) I think I may just head straight back..
Donald Glover talking about the comments he received during his campaign to be the next Spider-Man (x)
“I was talking about it with Dan Eckman, who directed my Bonfire video. Can you imagine that trailer? That would be dope. Like it makes sense… a poor black kid in Queens. Like it just fits.”
Nerds, gamers, and nice guys can be as racist, sexist, and homophobic as anyone else.
Meant to go clubbing tonight. Late dinner with him first, of course. And of course it all fell through. At least this time it was because the guy in question is an idiot and wasn’t just feigning interest. Mrah. I don’t do well with either of the two, though.
Berlin.
Most places. And this isn’t even low self-esteem discoloring my experiences! It’s disconnect and inability to connect with local people that chips away at both. It makes me sad that I have these opportunities and can’t even enjoy them.
To be fair, I really do need to write more about the positives, because they are there and they do happen. I met a Spanish guy a few days ago, muy lindo, and I can’t wait to meet up again next week. And he is most definitely into me. Hmm. I suppose I have a harder time remembering the last time the city itself made me distinctly happy in some way, but actually I don’t even know what that means or at what point you can disassociate interactions with people from the neighborhood, city, country, in which it occurred.
Mmm. I said this in the beginning, but I”m now pretty sure that it’s true: Madrid would’ve been the better choice. Ah well.
I’d probably like to come back someday. But maybe give it 4-5 years and make it during the summertime.
